Now more than a month ago, Lynn was kind enough (thank you!) to tag me for “The Sunshine Blogger Award 2019”. It’s the third time I’ve been tagged in such a thing and it always makes me happy to be involved in such things as it makes me feel closer to the community.

So what is The Sunshine Blogger Award thing anyway?

  • Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog so that other people can visit them
  • Answer the 11 questions put to you by the nominator
  • Nominate 11 bloggers of your choosing and provide them with a new set of 11 questions to answer
  • Notify the nominees by commenting on one of their blog posts
  • List the rules and display The Sunshine Blogger Award logo within your post or on your blog site

Here goes the logo!

And now for the…

(if only question was plural here but you get the point)

What made you want to start a blog?

That feeling when someone genuinely enjoys what you posted, and when they tell you it actually helped them, inspired them, or made their day better in any way. That satisfying feeling after crafting a post you are somewhat satisfied with. The community aspect and new relationships with a bunch of great people…

Is what I’d like to answer. But truth be told, it’s not what made me start. These things I mentioned certainly motivated me to continue (even tho saying that feels awkward as I was just on a huge break) but they weren’t the reason I got into this.

The real reason probably sounds greedy, but the concept of doing what you love and making a living out of it was something that I really wanted to try. That’s what made me start, but the experience made me see that there are a lot more reasons to do this than just that.

Is there a story behind the name of your blog?

Another one that kinda feels awkward because basically… I want to change the name to something that has a bit more of my personality but I have absolutely no good ideas so far.

In any case, I called it tfwanime because I liked using “tfw”, it sounded cool to have the acronym in the name. And since I expected I will often be expressing a lot of “feelings” in the posts, it felt fitting. But now as I write that, I actually wonder what is a blog post without some kinds of “feelings” in them? Just a news article I guess…

Do you think you’ll still be blogging in five years?

I think it’s likely. Possibly just making a few posts a year but I don’t think I’ll completely stop any time soon.

Is there any other medium you’d like to try?

All such timely questions. YouTube has been on my mind for ages, I have a few AMVs on my channel, with the latest one uploaded just a few days ago.

And I’m not gonna lie. I want to shift most of my focus on video editing. This is why certain changes have been on my mind. I guess when the moment comes when I’ll finally have the full idea ready, you’ll know all about it.

That’s not to say I’ll stop blogging. But with my focus on video editing it’s gonna be extremely hard to keep posting every 3 days like I used to, and be “successful” at university at the same time.

What anime would best describe you?

There is no way I could just pick one. The P.A. Works Working trio has characters who found themselves in similar situations and/or are aiming for basically the same things. Chihayafuru has the main character with a similar complete dedication to their goals. (At least I like to believe that’s how I am and a few people did confirm it.)

Toradora also has main characters who I strongly related to, and then there is Hikigaya Hachiman from Oregairu who also simply wants a genuine connection with someone.

These would be my answers. And that’s without mentioning Sora Yori mo Tooi Basho whose characters all have something I related to as well, so that’s another anime to add to this already too long list.

What was the last anime you dropped?

Blend S. Quite honestly I found myself bored most of the time while watching it and the characters didn’t really do anything for me. The humor style was weird too. Yeah it’s simply not for me…

What anime surprised you, for whatever reason?

Chihayafuru has been surprising because it’s basically a new addition to my all time favorite list but I never really saw it being mentioned as something worth watching.

Bungou Stray Dogs surprised me with four 10/10 episodes at the start of Season 2. Not that the rest of the anime was bad but I rated Season 1 with “only” 8/10.

What is your second favourite anime?

I have no idea how to answer this question since I have some 8 anime that I have on my “all time favorite list” and I just gave up on trying to rank them or anything cause it’s simply too hard…

Do you listen to anime music outside of watching anime? If so, what’s your favourite song?

Well yes even tho my music collection since 2017 has become very increasingly animeish.

But the answer to that question is Nessun Grado di Separazione by Francesca Michielin, an Italian artist.

Have ever admitted to liking anime and got a funny response?

I mostly avoid admitting it but some who do know it find me weird (as they basically even told me…)

Which would be worse, zombie apocalypse or vampire apocalypse?

I don’t have much of an idea how would a vampire apocalypse actually look so I’ll say zombie cause I guess I do have an idea for that from playing Left 4 Dead.

Nominations

It’s been an inactive time for me, so I have no idea who already did this or not, sorry if you already did but anyway I’ll tag a few people:

Aaand for my own set of questions…

  1. What is your favorite moment from a Kyoto Animation anime?
  2. Do you watch anime youtubers and if so, do you have any favorites?
  3. Do you watch AMVs and if so, do you have any favorites?
  4. Who are your most relatable anime characters?
  5. Who are your anime crushes?
  6. Does anyone else from your family watches anime?
  7. Do you have any other passions besides anime?
  8. Has an anime ever made you try a sport?
  9. Do you like Japanese food?
  10. Can you speak Japanese?
  11. Do you use sites like myanimelist or anilist?

Hello there! Long time no see, or… read. Hope you’re enjoying your summer so far! For me it’s been okay I guess. The exams haven’t all gone perfectly well, meaning I’ll have to try again this fall in Season 2 of “suffering with university exams”. But at least one thing is certain – whatever happens, I won’t be repeating this year of university.

To not go into too many details here, I now have a period where I can put my mind off these things. And I’m using this time to improve my video editing skills, as I really want to pursue that area, especially motion graphics. This also led me to do a lot of thinking on the future of this blog. But for the very near future, things are likely to stay the same.

One last thing before getting into the actual thing this post is about, check out my new video. It’s kind of the result of those attempts to improve my video editing skills. I’m proud of the way this looks.

Sooo, the actual post. Summer 2019 season of anime. I’m checking out this anime season more than 2 weeks later than I usually would. It’s because of being busy with other things but also because I simply couldn’t stop watching Chihayafuru. Now when I finished it, can we just jump onto the Fall 2019 season already now so I can watch season 3?

No?

I guess I have no other choice then but to go through the stuff I’m most likely to watch in this Summer 2019 anime season.

Dumbbell Nan Kilo Moteru? (MAL link)

An anime about working out sure sounds like an unusual concept to me. And I would like to check it out, especially since it has cute girls too. Also, in a Croatian anime group (yes, those actually exist), I’ve seen a screenshot from this anime where they actually mentioned Croatia. A reference to my own (terrible) country in an anime? I’m curious!

Kanata no Astra (MAL link)

What mainly got me interested in this was the PV. I love the intense vibe it has given me. I don’t really have much experience with space anime, but I hope it won’t end up as regrettable as the last anime I watched that involved space and teens… (Darling in the Franxx).

Dr. Stone (MAL link)

I’m not gonna lie, the main reason I’m gonna check this out is the hype surrounding it in the community. But watching how the characters will restore a world full of statues does sound interesting.

Araburu Kisetsu no Otome-domo yo (MAL link)

The PV for this did look kind of promising but I wasn’t sure if I actually wanted to watch it. Until I saw it being compared to Sora Yori mo Tooi Basho. That’s how easy I am. Just write that it’s a good match with one of my all time favorite anime and chances are I will watch it.

Enen no Shouboutai (MAL link)

It certainly helps that this anime already has a good looking waifu circulating around anime twitter. But it doesn’t seem like that will be the only good thing about this anime. Firefighters fighting against more things than just fire…

Nakanohito Genome [Jikkyouchuu] (MAL link)

This is likely going to be… trash xD. But the pink haired character looks cute. And that strange llama character reminded me of the giraffe from Revue Starlight. Not that these are even good reasons to start an anime, but who knows, it may be an enjoyable watch.

Machikado Mazoku (MAL link)

This is simply… so cute that I can’t help but watch it. Also reading the synopsis, I kind of got reminded of Gabriel Dropout, which is a good thing.

And these would be my picks for Summer 2019! Am I missing out on something great? Please let me know your thoughts and what you are watching! I’ve seen many people say this is one of the best seasons in a while, and I hope that proves to be the case!

With A08-63 turning out to be a secret human playground for the demons, some doubts over William Minerva’s true intentions have emerged. For Lucas at least.

Now when Emma is here with her pen, he can finally find out what is behind those doors with the owl symbol in the Goldy Pond windmill.

A phonecall with William Minerva

Behind the doors is some sort of a control room. But more importantly there is a lake. It’s the real Goldy Pond from the map. And it has a small island that floats and water that you cannot actually feel when you touch it. Lucas and Emma were as confused by it as I am…

This island has what appears to be an elevator with the owl symbol. Could this possibly take you to the human world? Emma tried using the pen to start the elevator but it hasn’t worked. Instead, the telephone rang and William Minerva himself spoke. In a way.

It was a recording of James Ratri, who is a descendant of the clan that made the promise with the demons. William Minerva is his alias. He left the children all these clues because he wanted to give them a chance of choosing their future. Goldy Pondy was created as a safe village but one of Ratri’s allies betrayed him. Later we find out that the traitor was Ratri’s brother Peter, who is the 36th generation head of the Ratri clan.

Another important bit of information from the phonecall was the fact that the 4 highest quality farms have ways to escape to the human world. How ironic. That made me think of Phil. What if he goes on a search himself and finds the way out? Although, without the pen it may be impossible. Either way, Emma and the others are bound to return to Grace Field anyway, to retrieve those they left behind the first time.

Project Lambda 7214

Emma and Lucas found a memory chip for the pen which brought them more information. Emma seemingly realized what are the “seven walls”. And they found out about the experimental farm called Project Lambda 7214. This is vital because they now know where Adam came from. Adam, the one that doesn’t speak and when he does, he repeats the number “22194”.

Yes, that number. Out of all the numbers, he is repeating the number on Norman’s neck.

It is here where I can say that I was right all along. Norman!!! Isn’t!!! Dead!!! He was fine all this time, he got moved to the experimental farm Lambda 7214 where he is undergoing tests. He actually did get a foster parent and his name is… wait for it…

Peter Ratri.

The same Peter Ratri who is a traitor and who wants to keep the promise made with the demons no matter what it takes. Now if Season 2 of the anime is gonna be 12 episodes long, I can already picture the reveal of Norman being alive as the ultimate cliffhanger to end the season and annoy all the anime-only watchers for ending the season on that…

One last thing on Adam, its almost scary how he grew attached to Norman’s number. Poor Emma might even think Adam is Norman, which I also thought at one stage could be possible.

The battle begins

Now I’m gonna be a bit more brief with the rest of the chapters because I feel like its doesn’t really make sense to go into extreme details with these events as its best to just experience them yourself.

But basically Lucas and his group have prepared their plan to take down the Goldy Pond demons and destroy their playground. The weapons the group had are too weak to destroy the masks of the demons, but that didn’t stop Lucas and the others. They upgraded their weapons so they can destroy the masks, although their ammo is very limited.

They were forced to start a day earlier than expected. But they quickly regained their calm and started with the plan. It involved explosions, flashbangs, various traps… The most satisfying part was ofcourse when Gillian killed Luce. Especially after he was the one who now ended up as the prey and begged for his life, even daring to say all of this is just a game.

“I’ll give you 10 seconds. Just kidding”. Iconic line from Gillian who is definitely my favorite character from Lucas’ group and I can imagine it will be the same for anime-only watchers.

Sonya and Sandy’s group also did exceptionally well to kill Nous and Nouma. “The best time to hit your enemy is when they are enjoying their prey”. Once again Hunter x Hunter vibes, when Gon was hunting for birds with his fishing rod.

The volume ends with Emma encountering Leuvis, the most difficult of the demons to beat. But I trust the group to find a way to defeat him.

Conclusion

Truly a fantastic volume that had pretty much everything – big reveals, long awaited returns, epic and satisfying battles. Things are really heating up, and I know I keep saying this, but I’m so excited for more. My pre-ordered volume 10 can’t arrive sooner.

If you missed out on my previous The Promised Neverland manga reviews, you have all the links here:

Escaping the anime-only zone – The Promised Neverland Volume 5 Review

On the way to B06-32 – The Promised Neverland Volume 6 Review

A Risky Decision – The Promised Neverland Volume 7 Review

The Forbidden Game at A08-63 – The Promised Neverland Volume 8 Review

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Time for another Questions x Answers! I really enjoyed doing this the first time and I hope you liked that post too.

For this second post, I gave you another way to send me questions. You can send them to me on Twitter, or in the form I will leave at the end of the post. Or, if you prefer to be anonymous, you can now send the questions on curiouscat!

Anything you send will be answered in the next installment of Questions x Answers. The more questions I receive, the more often I will make this type of post.

So with all that out of the way, let’s get into the questions!

How are you?

Anonymous simply wanted to know how I am today… And well I’m feeling fine, thanks for asking. Still processing what has happened in the last few days. That feeling when you are the one who drove your father to the grocery store today. Still need to get used to some things but its gonna get better with time, I guess.

Tell us more…

Well tell me what exactly do you want to know! Also, I have the About page 😛 But other than what’s already on that page, I’m not sure what to say… My interests other than anime include Eurovision and Formula 1, both of which I have separate Twitter accounts for. I wear glasses but when out in public I usually have contact lens. I’m quite short and my face looks younger than my age, which is 19. This can sometimes get annoying but sometimes its a good thing. For more than a decade I used to do various types of dancing, including ballroom, hip-hop, breakdance, jazz dance. I literally live for travelling but due to funds I do it too rarely… Hope that was a satisfying answer!

First time again…

Basically everything I watched in Summer 2017 because that was when I first time knowingly watched anime, and that feeling of falling in love with an entire new medium and country was an amazing feeling that I would love to experience again. Being amazed with how tense Death Note was, being moved by Toradora, relating so much to the characters and discovering the beauty of slice of life anime. Feeling that weird sense of nostalgia from Erased and getting intrigued by the concept of time travel…

Speaking of which, I would also love to watch Steins;Gate again for the first time and get my mind blown with how well made that anime is. Similarly, I would love to get shocked once again by THAT plot twist from Madoka Magica. And ofcourse, I can’t not mention reliving episode 47 of Hunter x Hunter when Kurapika did THAT and I never felt more hyped while watching an episode of anything in my life. I could go on but mentioning Kurapika actually gives me a good way to go onto the next question which is…

Favorite characters

Asked by @kuraclan who actually suggested I use curiouscat for these posts, so thanks once again! 😀

When I think of my favorite characters its more often than not someone introverted, and/or someone who is basically a genius with a super mind. Kurapika from Hunter x Hunter, most recently Norman from The Promised Neverland, even Ayanokoji from Classroom of the Elite… Sure, I can definitely relate to being introverted but being super smart? Not entirely sure lol.

What I also seem to love more is when the character is simply badass. Once again Kurapika and Ayanokoji come to mind, as well as Roy Mustang from Fullmetal Alchemist or Shoto Todoroki from My Hero Academia.

It seems like a given that I will love the character who is calm, non-talkative, smart and badass all at the same time. But some characters are my favorites simply because I strongly relate to them, namely Ryuuji Takasu and Aisaka Taiga. I could mention a lot more ofcourse, but I mainly just sticked to those I added to my favorites on MAL.

Overrated anime?

I’m not really a fan of the o-word because by calling something overrated not only you say you don’t think something deserves the praise/love it has, you also say that the people who enjoy something have worse taste than you. Its much better to simply say you don’t like something as much as others do and that’s it.

But to answer the question, I guess you could find some of the answers in my MAL scores I disagree with post where I named a few anime whose score I consider too high. So that would probably make my answer Clannad, Kimi ni Todoke and Your Name (to an extent). Also coming to mind is No Game no Life, which so many people are dying to see a season 2 for, meanwhile I’m having so many other series in mind whose season 2 I need to see…

Now when it comes to “overrated characters”, I don’t really get the obsession over Chika Fujiwara from Kaguya-sama: Love is War.

Yes, the dance was fine but it has been shared so many times now, seen so many times now, edited so many times now that its just not interesting anymore. And besides, how can anyone who has finished Kaguya-sama: Love is War, honestly say that Chika is best girl when Hayasaka Ai and Kaguya Shinomiya are right there.

Also, Zero Two from Darling in the Franxx. I have bad memories and feelings from this anime for various reasons, Zero Two reminds me of some people and situations I would rather forget and besides, she is really not that special. Neither visually nor as a person. It’s like people forget she literally tried to strangle Hiro, and I don’t accept any excuses for that.

That’s all for this round of questions! Once again, for the next such post, leave your questions in this form, send them on Twitter, or leave them on curiouscat!

This post will be a bit more personal and a bit less anime-related than usual.

I’ve put behind a battle that was various months long, with many self doubts, anxiety and negative emotions along the way.

I’m talking about driving school. It’s still a shock that I’m even able to write this, but yesterday I passed the driving test from the second attempt.

From the second attempt, just as I passed the theory segment and first aid as well.

“Nobody said it was easy…”

“…no one ever said, it would be this hard.”

This Coldplay quote can basically sum up my more than 8 month long time at driving school. I enrolled into driving school in the crazy days after I received my shocking results of the high school finals and when Croatia got through to the World Cup final. It was a time when I finished Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood and started watching Hunter x Hunter. I wasn’t even thinking I would start blogging in October, nor did I know what university I’ll be in. I was still in my “old” house. That’s how much time has passed. It really feels like a different era.

The lessons themselves as well as first aid were still really the calm before the storm. Even if I passed them both from the second attempt, compared to what was gonna come next, it really wasn’t that much of a challenge.

Before enrolling into driving school, I said I think I would have a bit of a fear while driving in traffic and that I’m not considering it “urgent” to go to driving school at this stage. But my father basically insisted that I should go now, and I decided I will do it, to challenge those anxious thoughts. I wanted to believe it will go well.

New Game! Traumas

But it was nowhere near straightforward as you would wish. It was the start of September when I started the 35 mandatory driving sessions before you are eligible for the driving test.

To keep it short: it was terrible. The anxiety was well and truly there, even if I wasn’t even in traffic yet. Every mistake was followed by more of them, and the attitude of the driving instructor was really not helpful. Basically, he yelled a lot, and with the anxiety I had and the amount of errors I was making, it really wasn’t comfortable.

That night, before the second driving session the next day, I couldn’t sleep properly due to all the anxiety and negative feelings. What didn’t help matters was the rain that was falling, making me even more anxious because driving in rain was gonna make things even harder.

I think that was the most anxiety-filled night of my life. And in those moments, random New Game! openings and endings were playing in my head. And since I tend to remember such unimportant details, I’ve started associating the New Game season 2 music with those tough moments. You can probably guess I avoided listening to those openings and endings in all these months. Season 1 though was uneffected, and gives me memories of better things, because I watched Season 1 just at the end of August.

Hope

Maybe Miyamori Aoi would be a good driving instructor as she seems quite handy behind the wheel of a car…

As the driving sessions went on, there was little improvement. The anxiety was huge before every single driving hour, and although there were a few moments when it seemed things are going in the right direction, the next driving session would override that impression.

Looking back, these first 15 or so hours of driving were likely the reason I felt such a lack of confidence in my driving for all these months, and why I still had anxiety before every session, even this week too.

In December I’ve done what I should have done much earlier – change driving instructors. A new bit of hope was appearing, and after the Christmas break it was time for a fresh start.

The difference between instructors was night and day. It seemed that the new instructor actually understood that for people with anxiety, yelling and borderline insulting won’t help in any way. This new instructor was calming, and understanding that some people just need more time and a more calm approach.

Will it ever end?

It was definitely getting better. But I still wasn’t fully ready for the test. Mistakes were still a common thing. After I did the mandatory 35 driving sessions, the instructor told me to get 10 additional driving sessions. This was devastating. Not only was I tired of doing those driving sessions and trying to survive the anxiety, but each driving session required a lot more time and money than it should because in late January I kind of changed my residence. Emphasis on “kind of” but that’s a story I won’t go into now.

Will there ever be an end to it? How much more suffering do I have to endure? Why do I have to be like this?

These were the questions that I tormented myself with, especially at the start of this week current week.

The tests

When I finally had the chance to take the driving test, I failed the first one. The positive part was that the person that evaluated me told me he thinks I will “pass soon” and that my “pedal control was good”. My main error was failing to stop at the stop signs.

Failing meant you had to do 3 additional driving sessions before taking the test again. Just to make things more complicated, the instructor took a vacation and I had a substitute for those 3 extra sessions and the second exam.

I don’t remember the last time I had a week as rough as this one, excluding yesterday onwards. On Tuesday and Wednesday, when I had those extra driving sessions, it rained. And various other unlucky things have been happening during these days. I don’t feel like going into details right now but let me tell you, some of it was stuff you wouldn’t even see with the unluckiest anime characters.

Yesterday it rained too. But luckily it was only in the later stages of the test, and it wasn’t heavy enough to affect me too much. I had the final extra driving session right before the test. All of those 3 additional driving sessions were quite bad, even the one right before the test.

The examiner was the same person as the first time. Apparently, that’s a rare thing.

I was still full of visible anxiety but somehow, I made it through the test without any major errors. There were some needless things, but not enough for a failure it seems. When the examiner said “-2, Matija” I was certain that meant another failure. Then he started talking about my mistakes but he only really mentioned 2 or 3 things. After the first exam this was when he told me I can leave so it was unusual that he didn’t do so yet.

You can then imagine the pure shock and disbelief when I saw the paper in front of me that said that I passed the exam. It is something I still can’t quite believe has happened.

Relief

It’s hard to properly describe the relief that this has been. To think I never have to worry about driving school again is just so beautiful. And to think of all the doors that have now opened thanks to this… I am so happy and so relieved that I’ve finally put all of this behind.

I guess the lesson I can learn from all of this is to never give up no matter how bad it seems. In this case I really wanted to give up, even if I was already kind of at the point of no return. In case of failing the second time, I would have tried to take a break from driving for a number of months, so I would not have to think about this again.

Even on the day of the exam, it felt like I’m a lost cause and there is no way I can actually pass this. But fortunately it turned out I was wrong. Just as I thought I would fail my Croatian high school finals, just as I wasn’t sure about passing university physics… It seems every time I’m convinced in failure, it ends up the opposite way.

Moral of the story – keep facing those challenges you have. Keep fighting that s*itty anxiety. If after all the self doubting and terrible anxiety I managed to pass that driving test, you can face your own challenges too. Just instead of self-doubting, believe in yourself. Trust me, it will make things much easier.

I hope your time at driving school was easier. If you haven’t experienced driving school yet, I hope you’ll have an easier time than me…